Harold Culney's Journal

My name is Linda according to Har here but its not really. Me and my son are in his place to get some clothes for him for Har in the hosptal and I started poking around on his computer. Thanks to windows 95 I didn't need his password and I found his jounral in his hotlist. I haven't read it all yet but Iv'e read enough to figure out whats going on. I want my turn to talk about him and thanks to windows 95 I didn't need his password to log in to this site. Forgive my spelling errors but I don't know how this emacs thingee works. I'm typing very slow.

Har has lots of email unread but i won't rea any of that because its private. I have to tell you though that Har won't be answering any email for a very long time if ever. He's in the hospitla again by court order after attacking a man walking outside at night. I'd guess it was the full moon last month when he did it or something and he went crazy again. The doctors say he needs a lot of help but they mean drugs whn they say help.

Har's a good person and I still want to believe him so bad. Somtimes something happens that i can almost beleive him, likw when his face got all scratched up while he was restrained and alone in the hopsital. The doctors tell me he does it to himself but why dont they ever catch him at it and why can't they make it stop even when he can't move at all?

I don't know what to think anymore to tell you the truth. I think writing about it helped him though because when he stopped writing every day he got worse. I loved him once and I still care for him but he scares me a lot when he raves and screams about ghosts haunting him. Voicesand rats. It's almost funny until you seee his eyes.

Now im getting all upset so I'll try to save this so you can see that he's still alive and okay even though he's very sick. and I need to change Drew's diaper and get him down for a nap soon. I hope all of you aren't upset that the journal ends with Har gone for pretty much good, but this isn't Seinfeld with all of them in jail and I can't think of any other ending Har could have given you. It wasn't a happy story but it was a real story, and maybe that's all he needed to give you.

Goodbye,

Linda and Drew