The Book of Not: The Book of The Interview

Case review, interview, 9/15/--
Patient: 671-54-2

A: Blank. I feel so blank. Blank white white pale colorless so blank and empty. Blank page. Like you. Like your eyes. Like their eyes. I hate their eyes. Your eyes, their eyes. They watch. Like to. Like them to. All. The. Time. Which is near, so near to you, it hangs over you, it's in your car.

Q: Are you con-

A [INTERRUPTS]: They're pale, you know. Very pale. But red inside.

Q: Who is pale?

A: You know.

Q: I'm not sure I understand you fully.

A: There... uh... they... um... once. Once they said to me, they said to me, they talked and they said but there weren't words for it. They did talk. Pale. With eyes. Blank.

Q: When did they talk to you?

A [PAUSES]: Do. Stupid!

Q: When do they talk to you?

A: They aren't there, and then they are. They talk. And they...

Q: What do they-

A [INTERRUPTS]: Kane. Kane and Kane and Kane and GUH HEH NAH. Kane left. Left his keys. Keys of the Kingdom. He wants them back. He'll take them back. Then he'll unlock it.

Q: Unlock what?

A: The KINGDOM!

Q: And then?

A: Endit endit endit. End. It. You don't believe me.

Q: I-

A [INTERRUPTS]: You will believe. They said you were blind. Eyes blank. Like theirs. You will. They. They said you were blind. 9412 East Sixteenth Avenue, Apartment B.

Q: What?

A: 9412 East Sixteenth Avenue, Apartment B. They said. Margaret. You. Blind eyes together. You are not in 9412 East Sixteenth Avenue, Apartment B. You are not in Margaret. You are home. But you aren't. You are blind. Lie. Lie down. I would like to lie down.

Q: Who has been telling you this?

A: They. The pale. They see. Their eyes, like yours, but not there. They see and they said. I see. I see too. I hate their eyes. They make me hate my eyes. My eyes are theirs.

Q: I think we should stop now.

A: Too too too late. Too late. [LAUGHTER] They saw. They will take me away. Too soon, too late. Their eyes, my eyes. Because of Kane. He is here. He wants the key. His eyes. No key for Kane. They will take me away. I will bring your eyes. More eyes. See it all. The pale and their eyes. Kane and his key. The anti-delusivans.

Q: Calm down. What are you lookin--

[1:36 of SILENCE]

A: Oh.

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